[C•H•I•L•L] to be able to really relax, in a way that puts my soul to sleep; to numb the muscles that receive my worries; to forget about monsters {not made of the things of nightmares but of passing anxieties and the concerns that cross the mind in the dull moments of the day} waiting outside of the door of every major decision I make, waiting to pull me into the darkness of realized fear; to feel a joy that pierces terror with hope; to believe that I am “led forth with peace” and that that means that I am safe in the midst of any horror; that I am not alone and that I never will be; to be eternally and immediately at rest.