Self-esteem Doesn’t Grow on Trees

Some days, I feel lost in my own maze. I find myself frequently caught in the middle of moods that surround me on all sides, blocking my view of the sun. The days in my marriage that are hardest for me are the ones when it feels like something is “off” but nothing actually is. I have spent countless hours trying to bottle all the parts of our best days, so I could clone them later. But you can’t grow happiness in a jar. It can only be found in the wild. The movement and passion of organically grown joy has no synthetic equal. … More Self-esteem Doesn’t Grow on Trees

The Calm In Me

How long will I be seasick?
We’ve been at this for days
The compass is unreadable
Bouncing in the waves
When you asked me to go fishing
I thought that meant you knew 
Where to go to catch these men 
In this great big blue
But everything seems harder now
Each task made more complex
By the ups and downs of all the waves
And water on the decks  … More The Calm In Me

The Dwelling

Desperate for knowledge instead of wisdom, we are looking for a quick fix to an ancient sin. We want control instead of instruction. We want a map instead of a guide. And we want desperately to see the end of our journey before we begin. … More The Dwelling

I own my Trespasses

If you cracked open my transgressions and saw their very core, I believe you would find in everything I have ever done wrong one common origin – the lust for control. It is the epicenter of my shame, insecurity, fear of failure, obsession with having a plan, my ache for answers, and my cheap attempts … More I own my Trespasses